audrey mae

The long wait, it is indeed over. Thank you Lord for the guidance, I really felt that, cause I was never sleepy on the first day of the exam, yung mga galaw ng kamay ko, underline dito, circle doon(sa questionaires haha), everything just bound to happen, everything that I must do. Todo isip, recalling all the materials and the books I have read, even how I learned the things that I knew of. Though, may mga flaws, in which Raze always come to rescue, I would text her, and then I'd feel bad cause I know i had mistakes, pero unforgettable na yun, at nakatatak na sa isip ko. Yun yun. The essence of learning from my mistakes. Kahit sayang, well at least, natuto ako. Diba. On the second day, I was quite sleepy the first exam, but I stayed, same ol' things. Come test five, the last exam, I felt better, ok yung pacing ko, I controlled my time. I knew God was with me, kasi through all those 10 gruelling hours of the exam, kahit inantok ako sa 4th exam, eh I still stayed. Awake. Ako kasi yung klase ng tao na tinutulugan ang klase, at exams, sa school, sa review school. Pero hindi, not this time.

Di ko alam kung tama ang mga sinagot ko, but all the things that I answered, I based them all on what I learned, and how it was. Yun lang yun.

Whatever it takes, I've had SO MUCH learnings during the preparation. Sobrang dami. Yun yun. At least diba.

So thank you Lord, I know you guided me well enough. Gagawin ko lahat just to be worthy of all this blessings, kahit wala pa results, I FEEL BLESSED.

Dream big, eh? I have lots of those. And by graduating last April, thus my first step to be a nurse, I'm on my way to become one. Oooppss. I know I know I still have lots to do, and go through (which btw, most of my friends have already been through last June - the NLE). Yes, I've to do A LOT. I haven't been studying seriously since review class in school was over (yessss, since last MAY). And now, July's nearly coming to an end, yet I achieved nothing. I was initially planning to study a little bit of everything EVERYDAY before my review class in September, but to no avail. I've been addicted to a lot of net stuffs. Yes, I do bum myself online, checking out meaningless stuffs, which happens to be my dream - my dream things, dream life - etc. Then I realized these things would be unreachable if I don't work things out. I mean - start now, or begin never are my sole choices in this bum life. The truth of the matter is, I'll never be a bum if I don't intend to be one. There's a lot of things to do actually. Pursue now, have the courage, work it out. Shame on me, I haven't really done a thing.

Note to self: Work now!

*Pardon me for the meaningless post, I was just struck by that beautiful quote.

* got this from http://www.livescience.com/health/top_10_about_you-1.html

I learned most of this in nursing school. Might as well post here, for my future reference and for me to know by heart. =)

10 Things You Didn't Know About You

10

Your Stomach Secretes Corrosive Acid

There's one dangerous liquid no airport security can confiscate from you: It's in your gut. Your stomach cells secrete hydrochloric acid, a corrosive compound used to treat metals in the industrial world. It can pickle steel, but mucous lining the stomach wall keeps this poisonous liquid safely in the digestive system, breaking down lunch.

9

Body Position Affects Your Memory

Can't remember your anniversary, hubby? Try getting down on one knee. Memories are highly embodied in our senses. A scent or sound may evoke a distant episode from one's childhood. The connections can be obvious (a bicycle bell makes you remember your old paper route) or inscrutable. A recent study helps decipher some of this embodiment. An article in the January 2007 issue of Cognition reports that episodes from your past are remembered faster and better while in a body position similar to the pose struck during the event.

8

Bones Break (Down) to Balance Minerals

In addition to supporting the bag of organs and muscles that is our body, bones help regulate our calcium levels. Bones contain both phosphorus and calcium, the latter of which is needed by muscles and nerves. If the element is in short supply, certain hormones will cause bones to break downeupping calcium levels in the bodyeuntil the appropriate extracellular concentration is reached.

7

Much of a Meal is Food For Thought

Though it makes up only 2 percent of our total body weight, the brain demands 20 percent of the body's oxygen and calories. To keep our noggin well-stocked with resources, three major cerebral arteries are constantly pumping in oxygen. A blockage or break in one of them starves brain cells of the energy they require to function, impairing the functions controlled by that region. This is a stroke.

6

Thousands of Eggs Unused by Ovaries

When a woman reaches her late 40s or early 50s, the monthly menstrual cycle that controls her hormone levels and readies ova for insemination ceases. Her ovaries have been producing less and less estrogen, inciting physical and emotional changes across her body. Her underdeveloped egg follicles begin to fail to release ova as regularly as before. The average adolescent girl has 34,000 underdeveloped egg follicles, although only 350 or so mature during her life (at the rate of about one per month). The unused egg follicles then deteriorate. With no potential pregnancy on the horizon, the brain can stop managing the release of ova.

5

Puberty Reshapes Brain Structure, Makes for Missed Curfews

We know that hormone-fueled changes in the body are necessary to encourage growth and ready the body for reproduction. But why is adolescence so emotionally unpleasant? Hormones like testosterone actually influence the development of neurons in the brain, and the changes made to brain structure have many behavioral consequences. Expect emotional awkwardness, apathy and poor decision-making skills as regions in the frontal cortex mature.

4

Cell Hairs Move Mucus

Most cells in our bodies sport hair-like organelles called cilia that help out with a variety of functions, from digestion to hearing. In the nose, cilia help to drain mucus from the nasal cavity down to the throat. Cold weather slows down the draining process, causing a mucus backup that can leave you with snotty sleeves. Swollen nasal membranes or condensation can also cause a stuffed schnozzle.

3

Big Brains Cause Cramped Mouths

Evolution isn't perfect. If it were, we might have wings instead of wisdom teeth. Sometimes useless features stick around in a species simply because they're not doing much harm. But wisdom teeth weren't always a cash crop for oral surgeons. Long ago, they served as a useful third set of meat-mashing molars. But as our brains grew our jawbone structure changed, leaving us with expensively overcrowded mouths.

2

The World Laughs with You

Just as watching someone yawn can induce the behavior in yourself, recent evidence suggests that laughter is a social cue for mimicry. Hearing a laugh actually stimulates the brain region associated with facial movements. Mimicry plays an important role in social interaction. Cues like sneezing, laughing, crying and yawning may be ways of creating strong social bonds within a group.

1

Your Skin Has Four Colors

All skin, without coloring, would appear creamy white. Near-surface blood vessels add a blush of red. A yellow pigment also tints the canvas. Lastly, sepia-toned melanin, created in response to ultraviolet rays, appears black in large amounts. These four hues mix in different proportions to create the skin colors of all the peoples of Earth.

... a while ago. Before lunch. At school, in the registrar's area - which is actually an open area.

But I didn't.. Thank God!

Turns out I carelessly left it there, unmindful of the fact that it's lunch time, and many students are already in the lobby, making it open for them to just get it, without any hesitations. And leave me phone-less (for the rest of my life?) I guess. Not that I am saying that SJDECIANS (as we are fondly called, which actually is quite long...) are phone theft. But still, who knows? I know some friends who actually lost their phones - in our own little school. You can never tell.

I'm such a careless ass.

I lost a couple of cash and some things in school so many times last year. Yes, I'm a self proclaimed careless girl. You see, I sometimes go to school alone ever since I stepped into college. And through all those first two years, I've never encountered any thieves in my life. I mean, I do go to sleep on my way to school (cause its just soooo early) in the bus, and thankfully, at that time, I lost nothing. I would always leave my bag hanging there on our classroom, while on breaks --- yes, even the one hour lunch break (cause that time, we only had one classroom for our classes, the teacher just goes to us), and still my things are intact. That's how trustful I've been to my fellow students (whom I know so well). When I was a junior, I would always leave my bag with lots of cash (not mine really - our barkadas' stash of money from our flower business). The only time I lost my wallet was in sophomore year, which (because of the careless me) I unpurposely left on the bus --- after retouching make-up with my friend, I didn't realize I left something there - not until when we are about to pay for our food. But other than that,  I never really experienced intended stealing by really mean thieves.

Come senior year, I actually left my make up kit in the wash room, with my lotsa vanity things in there, and some cash from our thesis savings (I was the treasurer). And when I returned in about ten minutes, it was gone. All gone. I was literally broken hearted at that time, because you see, I dread losing my make ups and to think, I had some new finds in there, waiting to be used by me, but after that, the theft na lang! =( Not to mention the money in envelope in there which is literally not mine - but our group's savings for the week, thinking that my vanity kit's the safest tool to keep the cash which aren't mine - in order not to mix it up with my own cash. I hate losing someone else's money. Though I can replace that (I suddenly SOSed my mom, and she offered to pay for it), but then the record was in there too, how can I, by all means, remember those record??? But anyway, I survived it all, thank God.

There was also this time, while we were on our Red Cross BLS training. It was our return demonstration day. Thinking that its only a few students and the three clinical instructors who would be there anyway,I left my bag in the demo area. To my surprise, upon learning that one classmate lost her phone, I lost my cash too. Unknowingly at that time, my wallet was literally drenched, cause even my thesis group's money was all gone, even those that are literally kept in the stack of cards. I was cash less that day. And I hate the fact that I had to borrow some money from my friends to pay for my lunch and transpo going home. I pity myself that time.

Also, while on our OSCE, I left all my valuables in the locker. Much to my surprise, when I was about to eat my lunch, my wallet was again, drenched from cash by a really mean thief! Though I was thankful at that time, cause my phone's not taken, borrowing money from a friend, made me pity myself again that time.

I guess I never really learned.

Lastly, the most recent one, I unmindfully lost my phone while on the bus in my own uniform pocket. I couldn't explain more cause I actually never knew how in the hell that happened. It just sucked.

Again, I'm soooo unforgivingly careless.

2007 wasn't actually my year, I guess.

I've cursed those stealers so many times in my life. I mean why in the hell would they steal from people leaving them heart broken??? These things, may it be really old, is actually valuable because it was hard-earned. Then at the blink of an eye, they would just steal these things without any considerations, thinking only of themselves, and not of the owner's. I swear by my life that if (I certainly hope not) I would eat nothing in a day and would be cashless for a year, I would never EVER steal. I know the feeling, and I'm really sure everybody knows - even those mean thieves - then why steal??? Surely, I couldn't compare myselves with them. To each is own I guess. There are so many factors to consider - their upbringing , their state of living, etc.

Put the blame on me, I think? I should've been more careful, and mindful of my belongings. I mean this world, though how wonderful it could be, and how trustful you could be with the people around you, you can never really tell. No one really knows.

Bottom line - never be careless. Just that.

Was tagged by my lover....


- I'm known in the barkada since hs (and up to now =)) as being clumsy. Back in highschool, I was actually called "pingas".

- I super love to sleep - during the day it is. Lalo na ngayon, I'm super bum. Haha. I'm kind of insomniac (is there such thing) cause it's so hard for me to sleep the same time normal people should be sleeping. Hahaha.

- I haven't had any bf since birth. Hahaha. So yeah. No need to explain.

- I'm bow legged (more on my left leg). As much as I really want to hate it, I know I shouldn't and I've come to love and be contented with what I have. I just work it out beybeh.. Hey we're not perfect!!

- I super love make up, particularly blushes, eyeshadow and eyeliner. If I can (actually I once did), I could literally splurge my money on make-up. I just love how make-up can make you feel confident and it can enhance your beauty. And it makes me feel good when one notices how good my make-up was done (which actually didn't happen on my first attempt to be made-up)I'm actually learning as much as I can from mags and anywhere else I can learn from. =)

- I'm a frustrated dancer. 'Nuff said. Dancing never really liked me. But I believe I'm a singer, so sing sing na lang. hahaha.

- I have a non pro license for 2 years na, expiring next year. And I still don't know how to drive!!! It's just like dancing for me, as much as I really want to learn, I just can't cause I'm scared and all that. And besides, what I just want when I'm on a car is to just ride, and chill myself. Hahaha. But my Mom said that I MUST learn how to drive na this vacation, and she'll enroll me on driving class and uh, yeah, I just said, Okaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy. Boo! haha

- Music keeps me going. =) I can be flexible to any kind of music. My type of music changes every now and then, there was a time I was so into house music, then jazz music, then anything music (?) haha. They're still my faves, but the type of music that's constant on my player is alternative rock music, and some pop rock. =)

- I super like isaw. and i miss my isaw partner. (Pattie)

- Even though I may sound or appear tooooo desperate on having a boyf, I don't literally mean it. I have such friends who are really great for me not to even think of having one. So yeah, I'm actually not desperate. I'm gonna wait without actually waiting cause I super enjoy what I have right now (kickass friends and barkada and super great family). Just that some people and instances are actually making me feel miserable at some times. But the end of it all, oh well, I don't need one. (Talaga lang ah!!! haha)

Which means less happenings, less social life. Boo! hahahaü Ganun ba ka-busy talaga ang mga seniors? Nakakapanibago! Grr. Konting tiis na lang.. and hopefully everything will be back in its usual place. Hahahaü